Are You Alive?

In the late months of 2009, I had come to the realization that I didn’t have a true passion.

There were a lot of things that I was good at, that had in part defined who I was – I was a great skier, but I was now living in California, and racing was fun, but was never something that I truly loved to do. I disclosed this to just one friend of mine, who told me that I’d figure it out some day. She assured me that my passion would become apparent when it was the last thing I thought about when going to sleep, and the first thing I thought of when I woke up.

Having randomly installed myself in the internet marketing industry, I started to realize that truly anything was possible. My desires as a child to design, and later on, swimwear in particular – began to fight for my attention without my conscious realizing it.

So I started to take the steps that I needed to, finding a seamstress, when months later, I was suddenly asked to move back to Maine for a career opportunity, my broke self couldn’t turn it down.

Fast forward a year and a half, and I sold my part of that company, and moved to LA to pursue my passion once again. It was 2012 when I began forming my patterns, sourcing materials, and building Kinsman Swim a line of the best fitting Brazilian cut bikinis in existence.

Now in 2014, it’s picking up momentum, and I can only imagine what I’ll be saying a year from now in terms of progress, as I continue to live and breathe in swimwear design.

It’s been a long, tumultuous struggle, and yet it continues to make me feel alive, regardless of the money and time that get lost in projects that don’t pan out and opportunities that prove to not be opportunities at all.

The feeling I still get when I check my email and see a bikini order coming in, a testimonial that makes my heart skip a beat, or walking down the runway at LA Fashion Week – that makes it all worth it.

What’s your passion? Are you living it?